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Ultra Death

I shouldn’t be here. Years ago, while training for a triathlon, I was hit by a car on my bike. Initially I was okay, it wasn’t until a few days after the trauma I developed an infection near my heart. I was in the hospital for nine days, with additional treatment and monitoring for a month after I was released. That was 16 years ago. I was in my 20s, and that could have been it. End of story. No running, no family, no future. Sometimes I think, what if I had never left that hospital? How would the lives of family members changed, for better or worse?

Trail runners are a scrawny bunch

Consider the life you have lived until now as over, and, as a dead man, see what’s left as a bonus.

This is a powerful idea that you can use, to treat the life you’ve experienced until now as over. You are in the bonus level, additional time, and extra life like in a video game. How would you act differently with this mindset? You were never supposed to get to this point. It’s one of my favorite quotes:

“To win any battle, you must fight as if you are already dead.”

Not to be too morbid, but death is removed from society; it’s hidden, whereas it used to be a huge part of life. In past generations, death was an integral part of daily life. It occurred at home, and funerals were community events, allowing people to confront and discuss loss. Today, however, death often takes place in hospitals or care facilities, away from the public eye. Making death seem more abstract and distant.

Classic line from Clerks

Advances in medicine and healthcare have extended life expectancy, leading many to view death as something that happens in the distant future. This detachment can lead to a lack of appreciation for how short life is and the moments that make it meaningful. Its purpose is to shine light on what is important. That which is limited is desirable. We think of death as this far-off place, and that we all get to grow old. Growing old is a privilege.

There’s another quote I like about death:

“Death doesn’t need to be treated as an enemy to be able to delight in life…I encourage people to make peace with death, to see it as a culminating adventure of this adventure of life. It is not an error, it is not a failure. It is taking off a tight shoe that you’ve worn well.”

– Ram Dass

We wear different “shoes”, or personalities through life. I have chosen the role, of “Ultra Runner”. Death would be the end of that, no longer a charade to impress, or prove anything. There is no failure in death, or a DNF for that matter, and we should stop treating it as such. If you can conquer your fear of death, there’s a power, and a sense of freedom. You can laugh at the absurdity of what life or races throws at you. I think that’s what drives most health-conscious people; a fear of death. It is flipped for me. I try to cultivate more of a joy for life, and I wake each morning reminding myself of this quote:

“I greet every sunrise with cries of joy like a prisoner who is reprieved from death.”

This creates an intense appreciation for those in my life, what I have, and what I get to do. Every run is a gift, to see more vistas and sunrises while I am on the trail, feeling a sense of awe.

Do you even lift bro?

The more you make peace with death and the fear of it, the more it becomes a superpower. While I don’t have a death wish, I use it in running by having a conversation with myself constantly. This idea that I get to be a father, husband, coach. This creates a sense of gratitude for what I achieve. It shouldn’t take a near-death experience for you to do that. Those who brush up against it, who are around death constantly, are empowered by its sense of urgency. It emphasizes faster action, not wasting time.

I vividly remember the video series “Faces of Death” from high school.

I remember being warned how horrible it was, and the site 90’s website Rotten.com. It profiled a lot of the similar content like “Faces of Death”. Maybe death shouldn’t be hidden from children, or society? Locked away in a box that nobody talks about, except those who care for the elderly, or sick. Death should be in and around your life to maximize priorities and relationships. Don’t worry, I’m not about to start showing my kids faces of death, my oldest is 12 and not allowed to watch PG13 😁movies.

Unfortunately death is the one thing us ultra runners can’t outrun. “Memento mori”. I invite you to remember death the next time your feeling low, be it in a race, or in life. You are in the bonus round, you are not dead yet!

I do not fear death. I was dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.

Thanks for reading, if you enjoy this post you may also enjoy what I believe happens when a runner dies. Let me know your thoughts on death in the comments below!

I had also created a little AI trailer for this blog post for fun. Creepy, right?

AI is fun! What will you create?

UltraQuotes – Part II

These are some more daily quotes I read to program my thoughts. I keep these in the forefront of my mind to remember how to act. Inspiration is like bathing; you need to do it daily. They are a gentle reminder of what’s most important in life.

“Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.”

You build yourself along the journey. This can go for your life partner. It’s not about finding the perfect person; it’s more about growing together and being what each other needs most.

“Success isn’t about how your life looks to others. It’s about how it feels to you.”

Be careful of the status symbol type stuff.  Fancy cars and a big house don’t mean anything if those inside are miserable.  Success is connected to relationships around you.

“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. One who lives life fully is prepared to die at any time.”

This also made me think that fear and action can not occupy the brain at the same time.  When I am anxious about a situation just act.  Fear will melt away.

“If you want to be happy, set a goal that commands your thoughts, liberates your energy, and inspires your hopes.”

An idle mind is a sad mind.  Being busy keeps sadness at bay and gives us purpose.  Knowing what must be done does away with fear.  There’s no rule for how to live this life and what you can deem worthy of your attention.

He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.

One of my favorite books, From Strength To Strength, asks the two questions: Why were you born, and what are you willing to die for? The goal of life is to have a solid answer to those two questions.

Be happy while you’re living, for you’re a long time dead.

Why so serious?

“People who are unable to motivate themselves must be content with mediocrity no matter how impressive their other talents.”

True in racing and self-development.  You get nowhere if you can’t push yourself to new heights.

People’s IQs seem to double as soon as you give them responsibility and indicate that you trust them.

People want to be needed and don’t like betraying your trust. Normally…

“We can control 2 things – our thoughts and actions. Everything else is not under our control.  We can’t control what others will think about us, so stop worrying.”

I would even argue that our thoughts are not in our control at times.  Negative thoughts will come so must also learn to let them pass.

What you resist persists.

If you resist something, it usually falls into one of these categories: it’s something others might judge you for, it causes some kind of conflict, or it’s your first time experiencing it. Recognize this and push through the uncertainty and doubt.

That dude is about to run off the cliff… Taking the path less traveled.

“I didn’t pay attention to times or distance, instead of focusing on how it felt just to be in motion, knowing it wasn’t about the finish line but how I got there that mattered.”

Motion is a gift.  It’s temporary like everything else so be grateful to be moving!

I greet every sunrise with cries of joy like a prisoner who is reprieved from death.

I wake up, and my first words internally are “Yeah baby, I get to do it all again!” You GET to do this, and you GET to be here. Be grateful for every breath you have on this earth while you are here! Stop complaining. Stop criticizing. Stop comparing. The 3 Cs of a CRAPPY life occur when those things CONSTANTLY come out of your mouth.

You are constantly cultivating the past, which is used in our brains to model future situations.  

You are a sum of your experiences, both good and bad.  Challenges show our future mind we can endure hardships greater than the current situation.

Create vs consume.  

Days, when I create media, feel more fulfilling than those when I just consume it, especially mindless media like TV. This doesn’t apply as much to thought-provoking content like books or podcasts. Try creating something before you consume, like having a healthy meal before indulging in junk food.

Life is not up, up, up.  It’s up, down, up-down.  Just be aware of the downs, but realize they don’t last forever.

Thoughts of insecurity, difficult times, and sadness all pass like a moving storm.  Just note gone, from the inception until it passes.  NOTHING is forever, not you, or anything you have built.  Enjoy only the current moment because it’s all you have.

Nothing beats a good paperback book while blasting down a rocky trail…

The benefits in life come from compound interest.  Investment in knowledge pays exponentially.

The more time you commit to almost anything starts to provide major returns. That goes with relationships, running, and money. Remember, learn to love slow progress!

I’m either ready or I’m not. Worrying about it right now ain’t gonna change a damn thing.  Whatever’s gonna happen is gonna happen.

This is a critical message to all athletes in the taper phase. It is also about what they tell themselves the night before an event. But for god sake please have a plan if it’s a race…

Decisions can be made for the short-term, or long-term gain choose wisely.

Those who take advantage of people or situations are playing the short-term game. Don’t make problems for future Homer.

Mind is everything.  Muscle – pieces of rubber.  All that I am, I am because of my mind. 

Developing yourself emotionally and mentally is more important than physical feats.

Be kind.  Harsh words are remembered for a long time.

It’s a fine line between being funny, and harsh criticism that puts another person down.  The best humor is self-deprecating, you don’t need to make fun of others.


Thanks for reading. Please share some of your favorite quotes in the comments below.

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