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Ultra Buckle

This story popped up on Reddit about some mysterious “Endurance Running Belt Buckles” that were in an estate sale and going to be thrown out. As someone who has collected a few of these, and helped others collect them, they have a special place in my heart, but those buckles are hard won. One of the buckles was a 10X Western States! It’s amazingly difficult to get into that race, let alone do it 10 times. Then I read who the buckle might have belonged to, Terry Rhodes.

In the comments on Reddit, someone said Terry Rhodes had the finishes for WS100 and Sierra Nevada Endurance Run, another buckle at the estate sale. She was an ultra runner who had completed both of the races from that area. Her story was both inspiring and sad, as a freak accident changed everything in her life. While on vacation at a resort, the top of a sauna cover flew off and hit her in the back of the neck. She was paralyzed and never fully returned to running like in her previous life. You’d think her family, or someone who knew her and what that race meant to her, would have known the importance of that buckle. Like it carried more weight in her life because of what that race meant to her.

You can’t take them with you…

It made me realize it could have not been about the buckle for her. It’s just a matter of the importance we put on it, and that focus can go anywhere, to anything. Maybe she gave them away because it was her old life? Maybe she didn’t care because they are just hunks of metal? They are glorified finisher’s medals. It’s hard not to get attached because of the amount of work that goes into finishing not just that race, but that race 10 times. The belt buckle is a way some are pulled into the sport, addicted to collecting them as a memento to remember these big events. I equate it to the candy or lollipop they give out after a toddler soccer practice, or any post-game sugary delight for kids, to remind them there’s reward in doing difficult things.

The buckle is a symbol, it’s a story, it’s NEVER about the buckle. It’s what had to be done to get to that finish line, but people always ask about the race swag. What do you get for completing 100 miles? You get a buckle, yes, but you get much more than that. It’s not wrong to do a race for the buckle. I am fascinated as to what draws people in, what keeps their heart going, and what keeps people running through the night. There’s no way that a person’s full commitment is the buckle alone. It takes far too many training runs, early mornings, and long runs. It’s a hunk of metal, and we don’t take it with us when we go. We take nothing. Maybe the stories, the laughs, and the times shared together. That’s what the buckle represents more than anything: that they had 10 finishes, at 10 100s, and 10 times they laughed, cried, and got it done. I reached my 10th buckle and I only ever gave one away. It was to my father for all the help and effort he put in to get me there. This is not a solo sport, as many might think. It takes a lot of people to get you to all those finish lines. The buckle is nice, but the story you are left with after fighting for it is worth more. Thanks for reading. irunfar.com did a profile on Terry you can read here:

The buckle ended up selling for $1,358.00!

Original reddit post: https://www.reddit.com/r/trailrunning/comments/1s9id2t/mysterious_endurance_running_belt_buckles/

Ultra Death

I shouldn’t be here. Years ago, while training for a triathlon, I was hit by a car on my bike. Initially I was okay, it wasn’t until a few days after the trauma I developed an infection near my heart. I was in the hospital for nine days, with additional treatment and monitoring for a month after I was released. That was 16 years ago. I was in my 20s, and that could have been it. End of story. No running, no family, no future. Sometimes I think, what if I had never left that hospital? How would the lives of family members changed, for better or worse?

Trail runners are a scrawny bunch

Consider the life you have lived until now as over, and, as a dead man, see what’s left as a bonus.

This is a powerful idea that you can use, to treat the life you’ve experienced until now as over. You are in the bonus level, additional time, and extra life like in a video game. How would you act differently with this mindset? You were never supposed to get to this point. It’s one of my favorite quotes:

“To win any battle, you must fight as if you are already dead.”

Not to be too morbid, but death is removed from society; it’s hidden, whereas it used to be a huge part of life. In past generations, death was an integral part of daily life. It occurred at home, and funerals were community events, allowing people to confront and discuss loss. Today, however, death often takes place in hospitals or care facilities, away from the public eye. Making death seem more abstract and distant.

Classic line from Clerks

Advances in medicine and healthcare have extended life expectancy, leading many to view death as something that happens in the distant future. This detachment can lead to a lack of appreciation for how short life is and the moments that make it meaningful. Its purpose is to shine light on what is important. That which is limited is desirable. We think of death as this far-off place, and that we all get to grow old. Growing old is a privilege.

There’s another quote I like about death:

“Death doesn’t need to be treated as an enemy to be able to delight in life…I encourage people to make peace with death, to see it as a culminating adventure of this adventure of life. It is not an error, it is not a failure. It is taking off a tight shoe that you’ve worn well.”

– Ram Dass

We wear different “shoes”, or personalities through life. I have chosen the role, of “Ultra Runner”. Death would be the end of that, no longer a charade to impress, or prove anything. There is no failure in death, or a DNF for that matter, and we should stop treating it as such. If you can conquer your fear of death, there’s a power, and a sense of freedom. You can laugh at the absurdity of what life or races throws at you. I think that’s what drives most health-conscious people; a fear of death. It is flipped for me. I try to cultivate more of a joy for life, and I wake each morning reminding myself of this quote:

“I greet every sunrise with cries of joy like a prisoner who is reprieved from death.”

This creates an intense appreciation for those in my life, what I have, and what I get to do. Every run is a gift, to see more vistas and sunrises while I am on the trail, feeling a sense of awe.

Do you even lift bro?

The more you make peace with death and the fear of it, the more it becomes a superpower. While I don’t have a death wish, I use it in running by having a conversation with myself constantly. This idea that I get to be a father, husband, coach. This creates a sense of gratitude for what I achieve. It shouldn’t take a near-death experience for you to do that. Those who brush up against it, who are around death constantly, are empowered by its sense of urgency. It emphasizes faster action, not wasting time.

I vividly remember the video series “Faces of Death” from high school.

I remember being warned how horrible it was, and the site 90’s website Rotten.com. It profiled a lot of the similar content like “Faces of Death”. Maybe death shouldn’t be hidden from children, or society? Locked away in a box that nobody talks about, except those who care for the elderly, or sick. Death should be in and around your life to maximize priorities and relationships. Don’t worry, I’m not about to start showing my kids faces of death, my oldest is 12 and not allowed to watch PG13 😁movies.

Unfortunately death is the one thing us ultra runners can’t outrun. “Memento mori”. I invite you to remember death the next time your feeling low, be it in a race, or in life. You are in the bonus round, you are not dead yet!

I do not fear death. I was dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.

Thanks for reading, if you enjoy this post you may also enjoy what I believe happens when a runner dies. Let me know your thoughts on death in the comments below!

I had also created a little AI trailer for this blog post for fun. Creepy, right?

AI is fun! What will you create?